After 51 hours of labor (you read that right), Esther Vivian Moran joined us on June 8th, 2015 at 9:51 PM. With seven friends and family members in the room, Esther entered the world among a chorus cheers, laughs, kisses and smiles.
I’m not biased, but I think she is the most beautiful girl in the world.
As I write this post, Esther is three days old. She has slept like an angel for those three days, pooped and eaten on schedule, and has been a calm tempered, bright eyed baby. When she cries, she is easy to soothe, and is even an outspoken Cleveland Indians fan. She is perfect.
Getting her here was a marathon, and Pamela was a champion. Water broke a few days early, and our plans for a natural home birth were thwarted after 36 hours of contractions with no progression. Since chances for infection increase following waters breaking, we headed to the hospital and were induced after laboring at home for 42 hours.
Seeing Pamela in pain was one of the hardest things I’ve had to witness. She is a tough woman, and seeing her at nearly breaking point was soul crushing. However, watching her push out our daughter brought a new level of love and respect between us. It was a wonderful experience.
It amazing how, even three days in, fatherhood can dramatically change you. All of a sudden, posts on social media and what other people think of me are suddenly not important. They just don’t hold any significance. I don’t know how to put it any differently except that you get a sudden realization that some things are more important than others, and we waste so much energy thinking about non-important things.
I’ve also been more focused, because the stuff that doesn’t matter, the distractions, the activities that don’t produce desired results, all have naturally vanished from my mind’s existence.
Strangely, I’ve also experienced a new type of freedom that comes from stability and have roots and people to take care of. I always fled from these in favor of freedom, but I suddenly believe that you can have both.
Although we are tired and sometimes cranky because of the lack of sleep, and although we are uncertain and sometimes lost, we are in good spirits, excited, and happy. Pamela and I have thrived against all odds; we were thrown into this scenario with no warning, and we could have become bitter and resentful, but we have always supported one another and loved each other in spite of our differences and our shortcomings. As a result, we have developed a deeper love and respect for one another. She is already a wonderful mom, and I could not have chosen a better parent for my child.
I’m resting up (quite literally), but have more exciting announcements coming soon from the headquarters of Freedom Fast Lane.
Until then, say hi to Esther Vivian Moran!